ICAD is finished and I feel exhilirated! I did ICAD last year but I only did 29 cards...just June really. I know I was in a very bad place emotionally last year and I was trying to use ICAD to pull me out of it. The details are sketchy (the psyche is good at blocking out the unpleasant) but I think I started to pull out of my funk and start looking for jobs about that time.I didn't actually find a job until October, but I think I turned the corner on some serious depression and was finally joining life again. So ICAD last year was very important and even though I didn't finish I was on the road to better things.
So, this year, finishing ICAD was a triumph of spirit. Of preservering. Of conquering demons when they start to gather. I claim that this is a process of developing skills, but I know that deeper within me it is a process of giving myself a place to go where I can lose myself. There is something meditative about creating. Sometimes creating can be frustrating and not soothing...but mostly it is tranquil. For sure it lets you express and feel emotion. I don't think I put emotion in the index cards but I am feeling emotion when I create them.
So I am exhilarated! For one, I finished something! And I am very satisfied when I look at the body of work I created. Next, I found an amazing place to share and be inspired (ICAD Flickr group). What a great group of people! And finally, I found myself well on the road to self discovery, both emotionally and creatively. I'm not liking some of the emotional discoveries but I am at least being honest with myself about my motivations in life. But I LOVE my creative discoveries! So much so that I am going to continue to create daily by participating in the Daisy Yellow Daily Paper Prompts.
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